There are times in life that I don’t want to deal with people. While other times, all I long for is the old times where I could always talk to someone and they would understand. I know there are friends who understand, but I feel like it’s not their jobs to even be a burden to it. I feel like the best way for me to work out how I feel is to just let me be. It’s hard for people to understand, unless they’ve been through it or see it in my eyes. I know what I want, but I know it’ll hurt people in the end, nonetheless.

I have no motivation or energy right now, at least it’ll spark up once in a while and I know at that very moment I better use it. There’s so much to do, so little time, and no time to even enjoy what life is about. Always in a rush, always have plans, and always left with more tasks to be done.

I feel friends come and go. I know you may share a moment with them and next thing you know, they act all different. The only time you are forced to talk is because of the situation. I thought I found people who I could absolutely be that friend I looked up to and could relate and come to, I was wrong. My assumption of how people act and how I felt that the only people I could come to were the people I knew way before, was true. I’m not saying I didn’t keep an open-mind, I did. But some people aren’t serious about life as I thought, while others spit out words and end up eating their own words. It’s hard to trust people and it’s even harder to know that you were once close.

Who am I?

I realized your closest friends will always be far away from you, but no matter what they are always there to listen to what you have to say. Lately, I’ve realized I have taken my eyes off of what I really wanted to do with my life. Surrounded by people who I thought would benefit me or I could at least help them get through with life. But people get distracted by things and forget what they wanted in the first place, and you are left to be walking life by yourself.
Yesterday, I realized what I wanted. I realized who I did not  need in my life and who I should just remain a distance from. Friends are friends, but there are social ones and those who you can come and talk to about the real important things about your life.
College isn’t high school. It’s not about people gossiping, emotionally cheating, or trying to bring drama. There are some people that need to realize that it’s COLLEGE.

bottled up feelings with no one to confine in,
and all I’m searching for is my lost ambition.

(via garyx24)

School, why are you doing this to me?
How can I succeed if all your damn quizzes/tests are back to back literally and one after the other - day?
I’m tired and I really want to do well - at least give me a break.
THANKS.